I…know he was an important man to you, Edgar. But dragging yourself into the dark corners of your mind over his death is helping no one, especially him.
I don’t know if I can take you for your word on anything anymore. I think… I think it’s better for both of us if we- we just took a step back from one another.
I can’t stop—
No! William, no. No, you can’t mean that. Please don’t mean that. -squeezes his hand, his head shaking- I won’t leave you and yo— you can’t leave me either, okay?
But- but we were okay once. Before any of this, this came up between us.
I don’t even know if your my best friend anymore.
I haven’t been the same man since my father died. This was always around…. only hidden.
William, always. We’ll always be that. Please don— Don’t say that, okay? Please don’t.
This is… this is something we can fix, okay?
Then just- stop talking. What I think matters little at this point.
*buries his head against Edgar’s shoulder* It’s what I need. I just want to- to pretend a little longer everything is okay.
William, love, it was never okay.
Then what do you want me to say, Edgar? That what you said didn’t hurt? To be okay with you keeping things from me? Because it’s- it’s not okay. I don’t even know what to say to you anymore.
*hand flinches, but settles* But…I don’t want to leave you either. So can we just- not say anything? Please?
I can’t have you thinking of me that way, William. I can’t.
-sighs and squeezes his hand, nodding- If that’s what I need to do to stay here with you.
Edgar-…no. You really shouldn’t have. And a lot of what you said stung. But we both said a lot of things we didn’t mean that night. Things I wish could be taken back.
It’s just better to forget everything.
You’re the last person I would ever want to push away.
I’m so sorry.
That- that’s good. I’m…I’m not. Fine I mean. Not really.
There are— -sighs-
I shouldn’t have snapped at you the other day. -holds up his hand, halting william before he could react- I just— I need to— Fuck. I was annoyed, Will, but not with you. It wasn’t fair what I did—or said. -sighs- You’ve saved me from myself so many times and that isn’t how I want to repay you. I don’t want you thinking of me as…that.